We still have not gotten the call for our court date. I am beginning to really feel deeply burdened and helpless. The whole adoption process has been a journey of learning real patience. A journey of keeping my hands open and learning I don’t have control. Some weeks have flown by and the patience has come rather easy. Other weeks have gone so slow and my patience has run out.
I have to say, for me, the waiting after our referral has been the hardest. Harder actually than I ever imagined. I really didn’t know what to imagine, since we hadn’t been through the adoption process before. My heart aches for our baby girl. My stomach is in knots all the time. I anxiously wait more for the call of our court date than I did for our referral call. I am so ready to bring our baby girl home.
I continue to pray and beg God for patience, for trust in His plans and His timing. And so, with hands open and my heart in pieces I keep praying!