Mike Rusch

It has been a pretty long time since I’ve had a moment to sit and ramble about some random commentary on life, but not for lack of random thoughts running around in my mind.  Honestly, since we have been blessed with a new little life in our home, there just hasn’t been time to sit in the quiet moments of the morning because this little life seems to still be on an Ethiopian timezone.

My mornings of quiet and reading (or as Corrie calls it “piddling”) seem to have escaped me these past couple of months.  However, they have been replaced with something greater.  They have been replaced with moments with this precious child who has truly changed our lives in more ways than we can even understand.

To some it may feel that I’m behind on keeping up with life as it was before she came home, and to some extent that may be true.  However, I’m definitely behind on keeping up with this little girl, and for now that is the greater need.  These past couple of months have opened some new doors in areas of my life that need some attention.

First, I’m not present with my family enough.  I’m not sure how much “enough” should be, but I do know when “enough” just isn’t.

Second, my bride carries more than her “fair share” of the work it takes to keep this family afloat.  Since “afloat” isn’t the goal, it’s time to get off my rear and serve her in a bigger way.

Third, in the absence of moments of quiet, reflection and peace, I’m really a bit of a jerk.  Don’t get me wrong, I do love engaging with the world around me; however, it is in those quiet moments that I recharge.  I haven’t had those in a long time, but that is my responsibility to find them.

And last, I don’t get these moments back.  Once these days and years of “just getting by” are gone, they are gone.  I know that I will look back in the years to come & regret I didn’t have more mornings with Sosi that didn’t allow me to do anything else.

Grace & peace…